o yeah its only a couple days away and im scared!
hear it is the 10th of September and i have 6 days until the Nations triathlon. its going to be a great race in downtown DC. its a mile swim 19 mile bike ride and 6 mile run. I'm hoping for 2.5 hour race. i figure ill finish around 3 hours. then i have two weeks to pray for a healthy race two weeks after when i attack and battle my Ironman. i have been training and i haven't been training. i do not feel prepared at all. i have three weeks right now and I'm basically scared shit less. this is a big monster that i am about to face. not only physically but emotionally as well. this has been six months of preparation and procrastination along with a life accomplishment that i need to meet. with the way things have been going i really need to succeed at this one accomplishment seeing as i have failed at so many other in the past year.
my writing is flat right now and i don't know how to get it back. i have no desire to write but at the same time want to do nothing but. i just cant get the brain to put the information down on the page. i don't think its writers block i think its lack of everything. im reading Stephen Kings dark tower series its my first time reading king and fantasy. i like it, its believable and different from the Bukowski and Palahniuk that i am used to reading. after i am finished with my triathlons season i am going to re read all the Palahniuk and read house of leaves again to get my brain back in that side of thinking, im not good enough to write big fantasy things but i think i am good enough to write in a dirtier truer style.
rock climbing is going well. im finishing 5.9 on first trys and first attempts. meaning that walking up to a 5.9 route that i have not done i can complete it the first time i try. im working 5.10 routes and have completed all the v2 boulder problems in the gym and half the v3's. i am now stuck on the more technical and balanced oriented v3's and can not seem to start any of the v4's and i don't know why. im enjoying the climbing it is a great stress reliever. like skiing when you are climbing you can think of nothing but the rock in front of you. where you will put your feet and how to shift your body turn your hip, if you let your mind wounder then you end up hanging by the rope looking at the wall thinking, hmm that should not have happened.
looking for places to go outside and in October i am going to be taking a class on how to make top rope anchors so that my friends and i can go out and climb when ever we want to and have a good time doing it. great falls is only a 20 min drive away and they have 200 routes there all outside, this could be a great fall!
i was going to try and come home for thanksgiving but its 500 bucks, i just cant afford that. which is sad because i have never missed a thanksgiving. i guess there is always a first for everything. as much as i am upset about missing it i realize there is nothing really to come home for other then to see my mom and to spend a day with friends. but if the last time i was home proved anything. i only need to be home for about two days before the fact that i am not apart of the lives of the people i know back home anymore to set in. i dont know when i will be home again, and well im not to worried about it. not that i dont want to see you guys just well, it aint the same no more.
other then that life is good, all the money that has to have gone to tech has now gone to tech i have finished paying for the apartment and the tuition that i owed after having my student loan taken away from me.
work is going well got handed an entire grading project for a 50 acre site that i didnt realize was going to be all me for the grading. its been hard challenging and a lot of fun. makes it fun to come to work. this next week we have four projects that my team is going to be starting. meaning that for the next two-three months i will be working tons of overtime which is great so i can put more money away for going back to school in December
that's it for me,
also! listen to when the levee breaks covered by a perfect circle its slow and spectacular.
my writing is flat right now and i don't know how to get it back. i have no desire to write but at the same time want to do nothing but. i just cant get the brain to put the information down on the page. i don't think its writers block i think its lack of everything. im reading Stephen Kings dark tower series its my first time reading king and fantasy. i like it, its believable and different from the Bukowski and Palahniuk that i am used to reading. after i am finished with my triathlons season i am going to re read all the Palahniuk and read house of leaves again to get my brain back in that side of thinking, im not good enough to write big fantasy things but i think i am good enough to write in a dirtier truer style.
rock climbing is going well. im finishing 5.9 on first trys and first attempts. meaning that walking up to a 5.9 route that i have not done i can complete it the first time i try. im working 5.10 routes and have completed all the v2 boulder problems in the gym and half the v3's. i am now stuck on the more technical and balanced oriented v3's and can not seem to start any of the v4's and i don't know why. im enjoying the climbing it is a great stress reliever. like skiing when you are climbing you can think of nothing but the rock in front of you. where you will put your feet and how to shift your body turn your hip, if you let your mind wounder then you end up hanging by the rope looking at the wall thinking, hmm that should not have happened.
looking for places to go outside and in October i am going to be taking a class on how to make top rope anchors so that my friends and i can go out and climb when ever we want to and have a good time doing it. great falls is only a 20 min drive away and they have 200 routes there all outside, this could be a great fall!
i was going to try and come home for thanksgiving but its 500 bucks, i just cant afford that. which is sad because i have never missed a thanksgiving. i guess there is always a first for everything. as much as i am upset about missing it i realize there is nothing really to come home for other then to see my mom and to spend a day with friends. but if the last time i was home proved anything. i only need to be home for about two days before the fact that i am not apart of the lives of the people i know back home anymore to set in. i dont know when i will be home again, and well im not to worried about it. not that i dont want to see you guys just well, it aint the same no more.
other then that life is good, all the money that has to have gone to tech has now gone to tech i have finished paying for the apartment and the tuition that i owed after having my student loan taken away from me.
work is going well got handed an entire grading project for a 50 acre site that i didnt realize was going to be all me for the grading. its been hard challenging and a lot of fun. makes it fun to come to work. this next week we have four projects that my team is going to be starting. meaning that for the next two-three months i will be working tons of overtime which is great so i can put more money away for going back to school in December
that's it for me,
also! listen to when the levee breaks covered by a perfect circle its slow and spectacular.
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